Lifetime Goal, or Pipe Dream?

Maybe a little of both...

Uncertainty. Not knowing when or how something is going to pan out can be terrifying. There's nothing more comforting than knowing exactly what to expect from a situation. With no uncertain factors, comes no uncertain future. But life is constantly changing. What was certain today, may not be tomorrow. We just have to learn to bide our time and go with the flow, fighting back when we can, and just letting go when we can't.

I'm one of those people that wants to know what to expect from life. I want to make a Lifetime Goal, no matter how vague and stick to it like the plague...but even I'm aware that while I dream big, I may not have the chance to see those dreams come to fruition. I want to continue going to IWU for four years and graduate with my degree. I want to search around for a job in my field and then move to a big city, preferably Chicago; I want to join a growing firm and work my way to the top doing what I love, designing new and pleasing products for my clientele. Do I see anything else in my future? Not really. This has been my goal for awhile, and as of now I don't want things to change. I realize though, that I may not have a chance to follow this dream. IWU's tuition is so expensive, and unless I pick up my game, continuing to go there for another year is going to be next to impossible. While I love the atmosphere and the people, I just can't see coughing up that much money over and over again. And, technically, it's not even my money, but the government's. Money that they'll be wanting back in three years. That thought terrifies me and makes me wonder how realistic my dream really is.

I've been thinking a lot about my life and where I plan on going from here, and while I'm still uncertain, I know that, for now, I'm where I'm supposed to be. I'm terrified at the prospect of things not going according to my "master plan." But I know that, no matter what, God's plan for me is the best. And while that may not always match up with what I want, in the long run I'll appreciate his guidance.

For those of you who are feeling as uncertain as I do, I leave you with this. Hang onto your dream for as long as you can. If you've had the imagination to dream it, it's worth working for. But also know when to give that dream up. For all either of us know, something else even better is coming along. And if we're supposed to give up that dream...I think that in our hearts we'll know that it's time. So keep looking inward and upward! God will tell your heart that it's time!