Under Pressure

I'm sitting here in front of my computer feeling like I have something to say but not knowing how to put it. These last few weeks have been some of the most difficult ones I've ever faced. In fact, the last few months have been a struggle. I've had to deal with financial insecurities, a failed relationship, changes in friendships and severe stress brought on by college life. I kept looking up to the sky, begging God to explain why I've felt like he's abandoned me. I've been drifting, trying to avoid confronting a lot of my problems, but still expecting God to take care of them. But at some point, I mentally sat myself down and said, "You need to do something, not just expect God to take care of everything for you."

Now, before you start think I'm being sacrilegious or something, I'm not saying God isn't capable of taking care of us. Not at all. What I am saying is that God, at some point, expects us to accept his help. I was so busy running away from my problems that I kept missing his helping hand. And it was always there, if I had only looked closer.

What I'm trying to get at here, is that God provides, no matter what. After I got myself back in the right mindset, I accepted his help and started putting the pieces of my life back together. It's hard, and there are nights I still cry myself to sleep, but I know that if I keep praying and seeking His will, I'll be fine. He's proven to me that if I ask for His help, he's willing and able to provide it.

With each problem, God has stepped up to fulfill that need. Financial problems? God has provided me with several jobs.  Relationship issues? I'm still following his guidance. Changes in friendships? He's helping me sort them out. Severe stress? I've gotten back on track and am managing my time better. At each point, he's been faithful and been there for me. So, I will continue to pray and follow his will.

When I got back from Fall Break, this is basically what went down...

Haha! Jo was still looking for a job, and she said, "I'm not going to be happy for you until I get a job too!" Teehee :D You have to understand our relationship to get why this is so hilarious.